Absence makes the heart cry harder.

I started this blog as sort of my anti-blog. It’s like the thunderstorms and hurricanes in my life vs. the rainbows and ice cream cones on my other blog. Also, I’m not good with analogies.

Last May a dear friend passed away. He didn’t have to. He took his own life, leaving a lot of sadness and tears. Although my tears have (mostly) ceased, there are many days he is on my mind. I’m still writing a song for him. I’ve got a lot of feelings to sort through though: sadness, guilt, anger and so many questions! What I can do is remember his smile, his groovy bass lines, his big heart, his humor.

I still miss him very much obviously.

In other news:

I have so many things to write about but must do it anonymously. Don’t ask.

What gives?

I guess I am finally figuring out that this blog will be the place I spill my guts to when I have way too much on my mind.
Today is no different than many I have had the last week. Happy but feeling a scratch of sadness right under the surface and it is something I have no clue how to fix. There are some things only a song can cure.

I have some serious issues that have been “talked” over but honestly I don’t feel like anything has been solved. The person involved is sorry. But what does sorry do? I need more than a sorry I’m afraid.

The post where I am totally a downer…

Hi there. I hope everyone is having a safe, happy week.  I have had a strange week myself and I have so many things on my mind.  This blog seems like the perfect place to run to when I need to cry, complain, whine, etc…

If you aren’t into that sort of thing, click anywhere but here. Of course if you want to read about a woman’s courageous battle with cancer and how this is her third time living through such a battle then please click the link. Unfortunately she is in the final stages of cancer and the only posts now are updates on her last days. I don’t know this woman but her story is the story of many and may be the story of someone you love. My point is with all this sadness is to tell your friends and family you love them. Cherish every moment you have here, even if things look turned upside down in your life. We all have our reasons for being here I believe. Find your reason and don’t focus on the bad days.

Moving on but unfortunately not in a different direction, I am also having a rough time this week with Chris’ death. Months later I am having memories flood my head and I keep hearing songs I think he would love and I wish with every ounce of my being he was still aound. If only…

There are other things to that seem to be pulling me down into a dark pit but I’m choosing light. I’m choosing life. I’m choosing happy.

Won’t you choose happy too?

January through the lens

(Photo by my sister Kelly)

My proposal to save California:

It’s simple really.

First, I’d fire everyone who is currently in charge of screwing around balancing the budget.  Then I’d replace our congress and house representatives with an equal number of males and females between the ages of 20 and 35.  They can’t be a republican or a democrat.  They must have some sort of knowledge in the field of government but they must not be lawyers.  It would be preferable that they come from retail, education, law enforcement or health care but not from a job where they made more than 60 grand a year.  They must not have any ties or accept any money from any single group or have an affiliation with any businesses.  The last requirement is that they drive a Chevy or Ford. 

Feel free to add your own ideas.

At this point a room full of gorillas could get more accomplished.

Back in the land of the living…

What I mean to say is, the land of Dell computers…

I already spilled my guts regarding this year and it’s pitfalls, so I’ll keep this somewhat brief.  I am looking forward to this year ahead and plan on blogging all about my adventures in each and every area of my life worth mentioning.  I am not sure if I want to give up my original blog or which one will get more of my attention.  I also really want to develop my “GREEN” blog which I had big plans for before my Mac decided it was too cool to turn on.  I am excited to enter a new year and plan on doing everything I can to make it much better than 2008.  Won’t you join me?

December through the lens:

You know how it goes…

Computer woes…

I have been left computerless and that is my story. I have lots to write but no patience for my iPhone at the moment.
We may be gifted with a new laptop this Christmas and then I will fill you in Internet. For now, don’t be troubled and enjoy this festive time of year. Be somebody’s hero. Smile at a stranger (as long as they aren’t too strange)!
Be good.

Greeblepix contest!

I would like to introduce you to one of the most beautiful places I have ever been. Meet Fallen Leaf Lake. Tucked away in the mountains near Lake Tahoe, we happened upon this beautiful spot and fell in love with the scenery.

Mondays can bite me.

I am so typical. Mondays are my least favorite day of the week, and Sundays are a close second due to their close ties to Monday. Can I propose a three day weekend? It will save everyone money and make for a lot of happy shiny people, right? Or maybe it would just make Tuesday my least favorite day…
On a lighter note, I am starting my green blog soon. I have been neglecting the poor thing for far too long but it will be up and running in a week or so.
I’d like to post recipes, recycling ideas, projects and other green topics. It’s hanging out over here so come say hi sometime.